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post #1 of 87 (permalink) Old 02-03-2011, 11:40 AM Thread Starter
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I want to tell my tale so bad!

Hello, I still can't see well and had a really bad day yesterday and pain in places that I didn't know I had, so can't post really. But I want to thank each and every one of you for your prayers. The Dr told my husband that I might not make it; but I did! So many complications. I haven't even felt like holding Rosie and she knows it. She is on the bed with me most of the time and asks Sherron for her other needs. I am just assuming that I still have chickens, and Josie Wales.

Intensive care is a blur to me; but I do know that I was delirous the whole time and sedated most of it as I was on a ventilator. But I could hear (remember that if you ever have a loved one in that shape). I thought that the drs were trying to kill me and then it became my husband and children. Rosie was with me and together we were trying to figure out which child had the most motive. When they finally let me become conscious, I said awful things to my children--told them that it wouldn't do any good to kill me because I was disinheiriting them (like I am wealthy or something). Luckily the drs had told everyone not to argue with me--that paranoia and delerrium (sp) were normal. My mind is still foggy as I am still taking pretty strong pain meds along with lots of other meds. I have lost around 30 lbs of fluid so far and am still so swollen. Well that is all folks. It just hit me, I have to lay back down. more later.
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Lucile, it is good to see you post. I am so sorry this has been such a hard time for you, but it will get better and I know you will feel great after healing. Try not to worry about anything and just rest and take your meds. I'm sure your energy is at '0' now but will pray it improves each day. We're here...and will wait for you to be able to post more later. "Take care of yourself, please."

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glad to know Rosie is taking care and your road continues toward health.
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Good Morning, Lucile! (Well, it is still morning in Washington State! ) I am so sorry that you are not gaining strength as fast as you would like! Please rest, listen to your family and don't push so hard that you have setbacks. We are ALL pulling for you! Glad Rosie is there, on your bed, watching over you. She obviously senses what you can handle right now.

Thinking of you often,

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I feel so bad.....you have been through hell and back. I hope that you will continue to get improve each day.

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Lucile, I spent almost four months when my late DH had heart surgery on the heart ICU often holding hands of others whose doctors did not explain anything. That was in 1986 he had many problems. Having done risk management, I was very comfortable with the hospital set up and what happens (I still worried but, I had an understanding of the process). Warning! No belly laughing...what I am going to share is funny and hopefully let you know you are not alone. These things bring out the best and the worst in all of us.

My DH did many things...and you just have to laugh....the only time I got upset is about three months into our 'adventure' a nurse broke down all over me...because I always smile and how could I smile when things were so bad. Gee what else could I do.

A small view of DH's misconduct (hehehe):
One morning I was called to the hospital early 5am and DH was restrained and setting up in bed and he told me that I need to get out of Saudi right away. He claimed they had cut off his hands and looked down at his restrained arms as if there were no hands.

A few hours latter he screamed at his roommate and made him cry. Because he claimed he heard us 'doing' it all morning when the nurse tried to calm him he yelled "He screwed (not the word he used) my wife! I'm going to kill him." They had to move his room.

Two days latter his brother had come from India we went in to his room and he was not restrained, I went up to him and he slapped me across the face, it caught me off guard and was hard for someone so week. The reason? He said now I was sleeping with his brother. He was not mad at his brother. He wanted out of the Middle East.

Remember the moaning that you hear in the hospital? Usually this is from suctioning for the breathing machines (hope you don't remember it) any way he told me he was in a sex club and those were the sounds of pleasure!!!!

Lucile, You were on some very powerful drugs. We are all human. I am sure your children are just happy you are home. Also my DH had headaches and could not read for about 1 month after he came home.

Just keep getting stronger. Hugs

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Lucile, it is so good to hear from you again! You've got lots of time to tell us about your experience so just take your time. I'm so glad Rosie is patiently beside you. Our little sweeties seem to know when we're not up to par and go easy on us! Please rest and take it easy.

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Lucile, it's so nice to hear from you, but don't over-do it! Let little Rosie and your daughter take care of you! (and Josie, if she shows up, but being a cat, it will probably be when SHE wants something!)

The worst is over, and I'm sure you'll be a little better every day from this point on. There's plenty of time to tell us the whole story later. You know we'll be waiting!

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I'm so happy to hear from you, even though your story is heart wrenching. One day, when this is far behind you, perhaps you can write a book about it so others who have to face it in the future will know they're not crazy when they too get paranoid. Sending love and healing.

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It is nice to have you back Lucille! You will get stronger each day while you are home and can actually get some rest!

Stay positive and stay strong. Eat! Move around, but, don't over do it.

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